Blog

    Poems, texts and musings about my family, faith, hope and love. In short, my whole life.

    Everything used to be better
    Blog Nº319
    Everything used to be better

    A Christmas thought in the year 2025.

    The eleventh of the twelfth.
    Blog Nº318
    The eleventh of the twelfth.

    How strange to live without Dad.

    Only God is enough
    Blog Nº317
    Only God is enough

    About the change and self-development I am experiencing.

    My Carlo is finally a saint
    Blog Nº316
    My Carlo is finally a saint

    About my joy after many trials.

    Formerly Britney now Carlo
    Blog Nº315
    Formerly Britney now Carlo

    About my great idol Carlo Acutis.

    The runners in the station all run, but only one wins the race.
    Blog Nº314
    The runners in the station all run, but only one wins the race.

    About my friendships that fill me with every emotion.

    Rosary Rally 2025
    Blog Nº312
    Rosary Rally 2025

    About the reparation of Mary’s Immaculate Heart.

    I am Catholic. Not bipolar.
    Blog Nº311
    I am Catholic. Not bipolar.

    About all the emotions of the past month.

    The Divine coincidence
    Blog Nº310
    The Divine coincidence

    About the miraculous multiplication of the cornetto.

    Sports, friendship and refreshment
    Blog Nº309
    Sports, friendship and refreshment

    How the 'swimming' in the river shapes many things.

    Matthew 25 in practice
    Blog Nº308
    Matthew 25 in practice

    For I was hungry and you fed Me.

    An (un)planned but great day
    Blog Nº306
    An (un)planned but great day

    The trip to Ocú turned out differently than planned in every way.

    Get away from it all
    Blog Nº303
    Get away from it all

    For one day in Your courts is better than a thousand elsewhere.

    A year of hope
    Blog Nº302
    A year of hope

    Blessed New Year. With mercy from heaven.

    A decade without my dear papa
    Blog Nº301
    A decade without my dear papa

    About my memories of the first decade without my dear papa.

    Amigos and Christo: on the road to friendship
    Blog Nº300
    Amigos and Christo: on the road to friendship

    About my long road to true friendship.

    In the chapel of Saint Peter
    Blog Nº299
    In the chapel of Saint Peter

    The day of canonization and visit to St. Peter's Basilica.

    The rich Roman life
    Blog Nº298
    The rich Roman life

    About my first visit to Italy, Rome and the Vatican.

    Advice from two sides
    Blog Nº295
    Advice from two sides

    I get advice from two sides of the world. Which one do I choose?

    Am I a genius or a servant?
    Blog Nº293
    Am I a genius or a servant?

    Where does my power come from? Willy E. Coyote or Carlo Acutis.

    I am sick and addicted
    Blog Nº292
    I am sick and addicted

    The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.

    On the way to tomorrow
    Blog Nº291
    On the way to tomorrow

    About de-stressing and trains.

    Don't worry, be happy
    Blog Nº290
    Don't worry, be happy

    About turning negativity into something positive.

    Pocketing with Father's Day
    Blog Nº289
    Pocketing with Father's Day

    Some Father's Day ads are hurtful if your father is in heaven.

    Time machine in prayer
    Blog Nº287
    Time machine in prayer

    How praying hymns and psalms stirs memories.

    The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.
    Blog Nº286
    The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.

    How psalm 23 becomes the foundation of my life.

    I have a new friend
    Blog Nº284
    I have a new friend

    Well, new...

    The contrasts between Easter and Christmas
    Blog Nº283
    The contrasts between Easter and Christmas

    On the differences and similarities between Easter and Christmas.

    Video of precious memories
    Blog Nº282
    Video of precious memories

    Relishing a great trip with very dear friends.

    Friends for life...
    Blog Nº281
    Friends for life...

    ...comrades until the last day.

    The fair in Soná
    Blog Nº280
    The fair in Soná

    A Tabor moment during Lent.

    Working in God's vineyard
    Blog Nº279
    Working in God's vineyard

    About needs, help and technology with Fr. Roberto.

    On pilgrimage to Jesús Nazareno de Atalaya
    Blog Nº278
    On pilgrimage to Jesús Nazareno de Atalaya

    With lots of memories from the WYD.

    For the love of my brothers
    Blog Nº276
    For the love of my brothers

    About love and prayer for my family and friends.

    Missionary soul
    Blog Nº274
    Missionary soul

    On the first lustrum of the rotation of my soul.

    Getting up early to meet Jesus
    Blog Nº273
    Getting up early to meet Jesus

    In the needy one sees Jesus face to face.

    A day trip to Costa Rica and Chiriqui
    Blog Nº271
    A day trip to Costa Rica and Chiriqui

    To the border, the volcano and the feria of flowers.

    From Panama City to Soná
    Blog Nº269
    From Panama City to Soná

    From the city of Panama, the great city of Panama to the place to be.

    Nine years of gratitude
    Blog Nº262
    Nine years of gratitude

    Some things escape you sometimes. Other things you never forget.

    Linguistics about women
    Blog Nº261
    Linguistics about women

    On the treatment of women in language and courtesies.

    My loved ones in Soná
    Blog Nº259
    My loved ones in Soná

    About living with the Panama virus.

    Slow on the uptake?
    Blog Nº256
    Slow on the uptake?

    Does it take a long time or is it advancing insight?

    A love-hate relationship
    Blog Nº254
    A love-hate relationship

    About hate, love and racism.

    Love, compassion and AI
    Blog Nº252
    Love, compassion and AI

    Human heart does not equal artificial intelligence.

    Identity Crisis
    Blog Nº251
    Identity Crisis

    Am I a Dutchman, Limburger, Panamanian or an amphibian?

    In search of my rich ancestors
    Blog Nº250
    In search of my rich ancestors

    When I am in Den Bosch I visit my rich ancestors.

    Bugfixing on Ascension Day
    Blog Nº249
    Bugfixing on Ascension Day

    Out into nature on this sunny Ascension Day and not computing.

    No orange bitters but gratitude
    Blog Nº246
    No orange bitters but gratitude

    About the great #ThrowbackThursday of recent years.

    I am the way and the truth and the life.
    Blog Nº243
    I am the way and the truth and the life.

    Jesus answered, 'I am the way and the truth and the life.'.

    What is the difference between Panama and the Netherlands?
    Blog Nº241
    What is the difference between Panama and the Netherlands?

    What I love about Panama? Just say everything!

    What is the difference between the Netherlands and Panama?
    Blog Nº240
    What is the difference between the Netherlands and Panama?

    The differences are great. What I love about Panama?

    To the Zoo and Sleeping Indian
    Blog Nº239
    To the Zoo and Sleeping Indian

    A day tour to El Valle de Antón.

    God responds directly
    Blog Nº236
    God responds directly

    Ask and you receive.

    To the river San Pablo
    Blog Nº235
    To the river San Pablo

    About the day at St. Paul's River and the Stone of the Sun.

    'Poverty doesn't exist in the Netherlands.'
    Blog Nº234
    'Poverty doesn't exist in the Netherlands.'

    Controversial and emotionless or heartbreaking and full of compassion?

    Enjoying life in Soná
    Blog Nº233
    Enjoying life in Soná

    About rediscovering Santiago and my dear Soná.

    Day of experiences
    Blog Nº232
    Day of experiences

    About appointments, waterfalls, fishing and rain.

    The party of Panama City
    Blog Nº230
    The party of Panama City

    The good start in Panama and the culture.

    From Babylonia to Pentecost
    Blog Nº229
    From Babylonia to Pentecost

    About language, travel and renewed impressions.

    Is the timing bad? Or not?
    Blog Nº224
    Is the timing bad? Or not?

    About the flu, Christmas and upcoming vacations.

    Blessed Christmas
    Blog Nº223
    Blessed Christmas

    We await our Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ. (Fil. 3, 20b).

    I love you always forever
    Blog Nº222
    I love you always forever

    It is December 11, the eighth anniversary of my dear dad's death.

    Boxing day
    Blog Nº221
    Boxing day

    On the environmental aspects of Boxing Day and Black Friday.

    Afterglow from the WYD cross tour
    Blog Nº219
    Afterglow from the WYD cross tour

    A picture says more than 100 words. Check out the aftermovie!

    From 'Hosanna' to 'Crucify Him!' in 24 hours
    Blog Nº218
    From 'Hosanna' to 'Crucify Him!' in 24 hours

    About the WYD cross tour and the stress the day after.

    Praying in another time
    Blog Nº216
    Praying in another time

    On praying for people in different time zones.

    Hatred, anger and annoyance
    Blog Nº214
    Hatred, anger and annoyance

    I don't get angry easily, but some monsters drive me crazy.

    Our Lady behind bars
    Blog Nº212
    Our Lady behind bars

    Mary, you go to jail without going past start.

    A fun WYD nightmare
    Blog Nº210
    A fun WYD nightmare

    A stressful dream about the WYD in places in my life.

    For what purpose are we here on earth?
    Blog Nº209
    For what purpose are we here on earth?

    The question from the catechism answered with my current emotions.

    Pilgrimage and farmers' union in Brabant
    Blog Nº208
    Pilgrimage and farmers' union in Brabant

    About my amazing day and an insight into my life.

    Museum Roman Catacombs
    Blog Nº207
    Museum Roman Catacombs

    Visiting Valkenburg, of course, we visit the caves.

    Conviviality in Weert
    Blog Nº204
    Conviviality in Weert

    After rain comes sunshine. After period of lockdown comes activity. After death comes life.

    The language of the Spirit
    Blog Nº201
    The language of the Spirit

    It is Pentecost, the Holy Spirit descends upon us.

    Missionary Parish Conference
    Blog Nº197
    Missionary Parish Conference

    The missionary parish conference was truly F-A-N-tastic!

    Seven lean years?
    Blog Nº189
    Seven lean years?

    Today marks 7 years since my dad went to heaven.

    On vacation in the church
    Blog Nº165
    On vacation in the church

    Today I had flashbacks and thought of my beloved Soná.

    Ora et labora
    Blog Nº144
    Ora et labora

    Praying and working during Holy Mass.

    Waking up on the beach
    Blog Nº142
    Waking up on the beach

    After a short night, a beautiful sunrise on the beach.

    Blog Nº141

    According to the famous song, now is the most wonderful time of the year.

    Why I refuse to pay for the gym
    Blog Nº140
    Why I refuse to pay for the gym

    To stay healthy and fit, many people go to the gym.

    Oceans
    Blog Nº138
    Oceans

    Your grace abounds in deepest waters Your sovereign hand will be my guide.

    Sinach - Way Maker
    Blog Nº137
    Sinach - Way Maker

    This is a beautiful song. God is always at work in me.

    Love
    Blog Nº136
    Love

    I find myself understanding more and more the signs of life.

    H. Mass, celebration, dance, barbecue & emotions
    Blog Nº131
    H. Mass, celebration, dance, barbecue & emotions

    Today we had Holy Mass at San Jose Church in Soná.

    Farm & Folkloric parade
    Blog Nº130
    Farm & Folkloric parade

    At a gardener's house, we drank from coconut with a straw.

    Catechesis & Opening Dinner
    Blog Nº129
    Catechesis & Opening Dinner

    The Eucharist, like every day, was a celebration in Soná.

    Poverty, gratitude and mercy
    Blog Nº128
    Poverty, gratitude and mercy

    Yesterday we went to the mountain village of Cerro Plata.

    Waking up in the cloud
    Blog Nº127
    Waking up in the cloud

    We spent a long night on the plane.

    The journey has begun
    Blog Nº126
    The journey has begun

    A message from the plane to Panama.

    5th anniversary of my father's death
    Blog Nº121
    5th anniversary of my father's death

    Musings on the occasion of Papa's 5th anniversary of death.

    Everything comes to an end
    Blog Nº120
    Everything comes to an end

    Musings on my work over the past decade.

    He whispered in my ear: 'You're doing good boy'
    Blog Nº116
    He whispered in my ear: 'You're doing good boy'

    I felt like I was sitting on my dad's lap.

    Marian thought
    Blog Nº115
    Marian thought

    A prayer from Mama's childhood.

    3rd death anniversary of my father
    Blog Nº114
    3rd death anniversary of my father

    Musings on the occasion of Papa's 3rd anniversary of death.

    Did I used to be a (d)angel?
    Blog Nº113
    Did I used to be a (d)angel?

    What do you remember now from before the age of 4?

    The WYD aftermovie
    Blog Nº112
    The WYD aftermovie

    The after movie of the WYD trip to Września & Krakow.

    Starting the vacations off right
    Blog Nº111
    Starting the vacations off right

    Preparing for the WYD trip to Poland.

    Days become weeks, and weeks become years....
    Blog Nº109
    Days become weeks, and weeks become years....

    Since last year December 11, my life has changed drastically.

    Why now you?
    Blog Nº108
    Why now you?

    My version of Why Now You by Marco Borsato.

    The first time...
    Blog Nº107
    The first time...

    The first parties and birthdays without my Papa.

    Love is longsuffering
    Blog Nº102
    Love is longsuffering

    Poem about love.

    Seek and ye shall find...
    Blog Nº101
    Seek and ye shall find...

    About finding a set of keys in a strange place.

    (5 of 5) Sit here and watch here with me...
    Blog Nº100
    (5 of 5) Sit here and watch here with me...

    5th post about the last 23 hours of Dad's life.

    (4 of 5) Then a darkness fell...
    Blog Nº99
    (4 of 5) Then a darkness fell...

    4th post about the last 23 hours of Dad's life.

    (3 of 5) A night like never before...
    Blog Nº98
    (3 of 5) A night like never before...

    3rd post about the last 23 hours of Dad's life.

    (2 of 5) Run for your life! Or someone else's?
    Blog Nº97
    (2 of 5) Run for your life! Or someone else's?

    2nd post about the last 23 hours of Dad's life.

    (1 of 5) And then the lights went out...
    Blog Nº94
    (1 of 5) And then the lights went out...

    First post about the last 23 hours of Dad's life.

    Knabbel passed away
    Blog Nº88
    Knabbel passed away

    Poem on the passing of my photogenic Knabbel.

    The Dove
    Blog Nº83
    The Dove

    A poem for my dear Mama.

    Sixth death anniversary of grandmother
    Blog Nº81
    Sixth death anniversary of grandmother

    Poem on the occasion of the sixth anniversary of the death of my dear grandmother.

    Mother's Day
    Blog Nº80
    Mother's Day

    Poem on the occasion of Mother's Day 2013.

    Memorial Day
    Blog Nº79
    Memorial Day

    Poem on the occasion of National Remembrance Day.

    The story of the angel
    Blog Nº76
    The story of the angel

    Improve the world, start with yourself.

    On the road to Spain
    Blog Nº63
    On the road to Spain

    Going to Utrecht today to go to the WYD in Madrid.

    Social God
    Blog Nº62
    Social God

    On communicating with God.

    Cancer Part 42
    Blog Nº61
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    Blog Nº60
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    Blog Nº59
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    Blog Nº58
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    Knees Part 10
    Blog Nº57
    Knees Part 10

    Knees Part 9
    Blog Nº56
    Knees Part 9

    Knees Part 8
    Blog Nº55
    Knees Part 8

    Footprints in the Sand
    Blog Nº54
    Footprints in the Sand

    Text about having faith.

    Knees Part 7
    Blog Nº53
    Knees Part 7

    Knees Part 6
    Blog Nº52
    Knees Part 6

    Knees Part 5
    Blog Nº51
    Knees Part 5

    Knees Part 4
    Blog Nº50
    Knees Part 4

    Knees Part 3
    Blog Nº49
    Knees Part 3

    Laufenburg
    Blog Nº44
    Laufenburg

    After a long sleep, we went to Laufenburg.

    Knees Part 2
    Blog Nº42
    Knees Part 2

    Knees Part 1
    Blog Nº41
    Knees Part 1

    Knees Premiere
    Blog Nº40
    Knees Premiere

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    Blog Nº39
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    Blog Nº35
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    Dad and Mom married 24 years
    Blog Nº34
    Dad and Mom married 24 years

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    Blog Nº33
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    Blog Nº32
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    Blog Nº31
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    Blog Nº30
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    Blog Nº29
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    Blog Nº28
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    Blog Nº27
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    Blog Nº26
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    Blog Nº24
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    Blog Nº23
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    Blog Nº22
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    Blog Nº21
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    Blog Nº18
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    Blog Nº11
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    Blog Nº10
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    Blog Nº9
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    Blog Nº7
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    Blog Nº4
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    Blog Nº3
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    Blog Nº2
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    Blog Nº1
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